Spider Lashes

the once alive and flowing energy

quickly leaves my collapsing body

whether by the force of medication

or the sharp lack of strength

my vehicle sits

desolate and tired

weeping the oil I fed her with

and resulting, I am weeping

in my collapse, I feel moreso a lacking

a lacking of care

less of a shatter 

and more of a hole

a lack of being cared for and loved

because those who love you

will never show you

god I just fucking wish someone

anyone

would do something nice for me

buying me a gift

making me something

giving me a ride

even just holding open a fucking door

i feel like im nothing

i feel so powerful and alive in my eyes

but in the reflections, nothing

a crazed ill bastard

with a pale cherry face

and spider lashes so intense

they’ll make you cry